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'Some of me is very wise. Some of me is an absolute fucking idiot.' I know this person.

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Thank you for sharing ❤️ I finished up a 2 year pandemic therapy gift to myself last May and I am still marinating on the learnings and the un-learnings

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The unlearning, I am finding, are more powerful for me than the learnings. x

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I love this description you’ve given of the ‘magic’ of therapy-what a beautiful gift to yourself 🧡

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Thank you. x

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I absolutely love this, thank you. It sounds very similar to my current therapy which I am actually really enjoying in a bizarre kind of way - I think because I can totally see and feel it working 💛

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I had a lot of bad experiences and it is such a gift when you find someone who gets you and who you can work with and where you can see and feel the benefits. I am so glad that is your experience. x

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Yes I’ve had a couple of past therapists who weren’t right for me, they weren’t bad but it’s only finding my most recent one that has really helped me unravel everything I need to, to start to become who I am. I’m sorry for your bad experiences x

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Therapy is the place (for me) to take my bag of shit and throw it in the compost bin. Today's shit becomes tomorrow's fertilizer for growth. Love that you're starting to see results.

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That's a great way of putting it. x

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We are all usually our own worst enemy, right? I know I am.

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Absolutely. x

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Oh Katy, so beautiful and so courageously written.

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Thank you. x

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"...all I ever wanted was to be seen and heard and for someone to try to understand me without putting words in my mouth or telling me what I really think."

I'm ten years ahead of you and still don't understand how therapy works and what I'm meant to get from it or what tools I'm supposed to be using to help myself heal. If I could afford it I'd have two or three more therapists, then I might be able to trick myself into believing I had people around me who cared.

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I'm so sorry that this is your experience. I have had numerous therapists over the years, some of whom helped hold the darkness at bay and others who made things worse. It's such a trial and error thing. I think you should be able to interview them x

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❤️

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xx

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Wise words, as usual. You talk about how to ‘fix yourself’ by finding that one, elusive thing. I have/had similar feelings but am sabotaged at every turn by my adhd brain being SO fucking good at so many things. Is this you too? 🤔

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I don't think so, no. I am not great at many things! It helped me to understand that therapy is a tool, like a fork or a can opener. It's not meant to fix me and it's not there for me to find that 'one' magic thing. It's more that over the years, with a lot of trial and error I have found a variety of things that help in specific circumstances. What I love about this therapist is that there is no sense of fixing or finding the one thing. There's just a gentle, powerful conversation about how I might understand and learn to love myself a little better. x

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